You love him, but you're not in love

You love him, but you're not in love...
Even if you sometimes find yourself thinking about him, you remember that there is a reason you broke up. Sure, you still have feelings for your former flame, but he is not the one making your blood boil anymore. Congrats on your ability to move on. You realize that your ex was an important part of your life, but that he belongs exactly where is right now-in your past.

Oblivious It's hard to know.
And hurts to feel.
Alone and lost.
And not quite real.
Because without you,
I'm without me.
And, God, I love you.
But you can't see.
The things I do,
To show I care.
To give advice.
Though it makes my heart tear.
To hear about girls,
Who make your eyes hazy.
... And then, there's me...
It's making me crazy!
I want to scream
And bang and yell.
"I LOVE YOU!",
But I'll never tell
Because we're friends
And friends we'll be
From start to end.
I just wish you loved me...

as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek
You would think by now,
I would know my way around,
I shouldn't miss you so badly,
I should be on familiar ground.
How many more lonely years, must meander by,
until I learn the lesson, it does no good to cry.
What manner of iron will, must some people possess,
to be always looking forward, to never accept regress.
Perhaps if I was willing, to let someone take me by the hand,
they could show me a happy place, in this unfamiliar land.
Perhaps I'm only homesick, for all the joys that once were mine,
I must accept that they and you, belong to another place and time.
But I know that deep within my heart, there's a place where only you reside,
and when the pain of loneliness comes, it knows that is where I hide.
So if sometimes it seems to you, I'm clinging to the past,
it's mostly because I can't yet accept, that our love didn't last.
No matter how hard I try, I've yet to get over you,
for the part of me that's still alive, believes you love me too.
Maybe there will come a day, when that part will finally die,
and feeling strong with a heart reborn, a new love I will finally try.
And what a splendid day that will be, when I awaken to discover,
I'm happily learning a great new land, with a great new friend and lover.

At night
At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true
At night I wonder can this be the end is this all that's left
At night I wish we could go to the way things were
At night I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended
At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I
At night I realize there's no more us
At night I dream of us together again
At night I wish for us to be together again
But in the morning I realize it was all
At Night
As we lay there quiet
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile,
and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me

As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way them seems to read my thoughts

As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing
I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.
They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried.
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.
The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song.
I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been?
I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back.
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track.
I saw him just today and his smile is still the same.
He looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name.
I wonder if he remembers me, It hasn't been that long.
He may have forgotten me, but I still sing his song.

It's becoming more evident
Much more obvious to me
I thought much more of you
Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake
Letting myself think you cared
Was I just your marionette
With heartstrings open and bared

With me left here still thinking
What was false, what was true
So puzzling and so complex
I’m left to await another clue

On my heartstings you played
Each left with a loving memory
Yet I still have those questions
Do you ever think about me

I’m wondering why all the intrigue
Now why all of this mystery
Why am I left here hanging
Your the one that holds the key.
They had been together for many a year,
Now all she can feel is fear.
She gave all that she could give,
It just wasn't the way he wanted to live.

He left without a backward glance,
Not even giving their love a chance.
She often wonders what she could have done,
To keep him from going on the run.

Now she is living all alone,
With nothing she can call her own.
She can barely make herself eat,
Wondering if her life will again be complete.

This woman is now moving along,
Building her courage, and becoming strong.
Time will heal her broken pride,
Toward the sunrise her heart will glide.

It's gone
What's gone? My mind?
Soul? No, I'm fine
Not really
Deep inside, something is missing
The love and tender kissing
She walked out herself
Now all I do is talk to myself
in the mirror, with my reflection
My heart is dead
Soon it will make a resurrection
Once the wounds heal
And I'm loved for real
A type of love I can feel
But nobody loves me
Nobody cares
Nobody loves me
That nobody is me
I can't love myself because no one does
I'm all alone and no longer what I once was
But the only thing that keeps me alive
Is knowing that the next day, it might all change
For the best
And that "nobody" becomes somebody
Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,
and easily falls apart."

Extending your arms, you take the heart in
your tender warm hands.
It falls into a million shattered pieces - on
the floor it lands.

You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and
sadness in your eyes.

Apologies are not enough.

Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart
that has fallen apart.

I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of
my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.

I need to put it together again, some how. some way.

Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.
Each piece of my heart has part of you.

You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a
heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.

All my tears won't keep you near
All my tears won't mend what's not here.

Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the
world, with a love for you that gives a glow -
but now, my darling, you made a choice.

My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up -
I need to learn to let go.
You came into my life
As quickly as you left.
You grabbed a cutting knife
And sliced right through my breast.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

My heart now cut in two
It feels beyond repair.
Injury done by you
God, life just isn't fair.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?

So here we are, just friends,
But I long to be more.
Desire with no end
Throbbing from my core.

You didn't mean to hurt
But what did you expect?
I've learned a lot of lessons
In the short time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.

But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to love
And I've learned to let go.

You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.

I lie at night and think about
How I'm the one to blame.
If only I would have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.

And so I spent each day of my life
With my heart in pieces
And when I thought it could never be cured,
Something happened; I expected it least.

I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
And even though I know I'm guilty,
I was tired of being accused.

And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye."
You'll never know
How much I loved you,
How much I cared.

You'll never know
About my pain,
About my broken heart.

You'll never know
How much I cried,
Just lying on my bed
And thinking of you . . .
kissing her.
I will never forget the days we once had
The days when you were everything to me
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever
But now I realize that was all a big dream
The feelings I have for you will never go
I wish I could take back that one regretful day
The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms
Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets
That I would once have to live through
The sight of you in someone else's arms
Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces
I sometimes wonder if you still think of me
Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd
I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back
But for now, I'll sit here silently
Remembering all the memories we once shared
Everyday my love grows much stronger
Hoping that one day you will feel the same
And put back the pieces of my broken heart.

Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.

With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.

I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with his soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.

With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.

While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.

Love hurts . . .
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.

Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.
You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,
And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,
And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.

You forgive me for playing your games,
And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,
And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,
And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,
And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,
And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

Forgiveness brings inner peace.
Do we have a deal?
I keep waiting for the phone to ring
Yet I know it won't be you;
I try to fill my life with busyness
Yet all I do is think of you.

What became of us
And all our dreams and plans;
How could you turn and walk away
As I watched our castles turn to sand?

Do you never even miss me
Don't you long to caress my face;
How could you forget so easily
And You I can't erase?

I want to be in your arms again
To see the laughter in your eyes;
But I guess the joke's on me
And Oh! Was I surprised!

How could he choose her over me?
What does she have that I don't?
It's funny how he choose her, when we were supposed to Be.

But I guess I realized that we weren't meant to be on that New Year's Eve.
She took his heart, made it turn from me.
How could he choose her over me?
There once was a time if I just closed my eyes,
I could see us together as one.
But after these years of growing apart,
I can see that dream is done.
You were the one who knew me inside and out,
And always knew just what to say.
Any problems I had would disappear,
When you said it would all be okay.
There was always a special connection with us,
And these days it seems to be gone.
Whatever we had died a long time ago,
But it's just so hard to move on.
Those times I'd drown in the blue of your eyes,
You never noticed a thing.
There were nights I laid awake and thought,
Of the love our friendship could bring.
No matter how hard I've been trying,
The truth is so hard to see.
I guess it takes a while to let go,
Of something not meant to be.


Sleepless, dreamless, hopeless nights,
I wish for you to come.
To fill my eyes with tears of happiness,
and take away this glum.

I wish for you to put your hands around me,
and make me cozy and warm,
and fill my stomach with butterflies and bees,
that so gently swarm.

I wish for you to bring me joy,
when everything seems so bad,
and take me out of this unhappy mood,
that makes me feel so sad.

I wish for you to give me back the memories
that brightened up my heart,
and let us share more of them,
because I do not understand
why we ever did part.

I wish for everything to be as it was,
having soft sleeps filled with dreams and hope tonight,
so that for every coming day there is a shine of light.

Does it have to end like this?
For I'm not back in your arms,
my dreams still torn,
my heart still empty,
my life with no happiness,
my day with no future without you.
The dream begins as you open the door,
the wonderful feeling too strong to ignore.
Do you remember? Are you feeling it too?
Are you also wondering what to do?

Not knowing what to say,
please speak first, I pray.
Remembering all the promises and lies,
remembering the hurt that never dies.

The words that I dare not utter are flooding me,
the real you is the you that I never did see.
You swore to me you would never let go,
how the hell was I supposed to know?

Nothing you said was ever true,
you still don't realize you make me so blue.
How hurtful it is to finally see,
that even now you don't understand me.
It was a sad and quiet night,
with words as my shade,
I wrote this poem to you,
hoping that the pain would fade.

Hoping that the pain would fade,
the pain I feel in me,
as each day passes by,
the time might set me free.

It was a sad and quiet night,
when I faced the hardest part,
cause I was all by myself,
with a broken heart.

It was a sad and quiet night,
with my head in hand,
when I learned to accept,
and how to understand.

Now I do understand,
that reality is pain,
which brought me tears,
and left me in the rain.

It was a sad and quiet night,
as my dreams went through,
I realize my mistake,
it was wrong to love you.
I'm here waiting
Impatiently, eyes full of tears,
The other day you said you loved me
You said it perfectly clear.

Now, today's a new day
And you're not here by my side,
Now everything you told me
Just feels like pain and lies.

You said you would be here forever
Was that just a lie, too?
You made promises you couldn't keep
I had all my faith in you.

You took off with my heart
And life inside your hands,
I'm left empty and incomplete
Why can't you understand.

You let me down
When my hopes were high,
I try to smile
But I always sigh.

I'm left alone
With all this pain and misery,
Your love is all I ask for
Why can't you see.

You loved me for who I was
Not for who I tried to be,
You were the best thing that ever happen to me
You'll always be inside of me.

We've been through too much
For you to push me away,
I'll always love you no matter what
It will never fade away.
Why is it
that we can never remain friends?
We were so close when we were together.
I thought of you as my best friend
but now that we are no longer a couple
it seems as if we've lost our trust,
our trust in each other and our love.
You say you want to be good friends,
but how can you think that I would hurt you
or tell your secrets
that you told me while we laid in each others arms
I wouldn't and couldn't ever hurt you
I can't be mad at you because it hurts to much
it hurts not to hear your voice
or not to see your face.
I miss you but I try to put you out of my mind
so that my heart won't ache anymore
I wish I didn't care so much.
I wish I didn't miss you
but I do
and I try to deny it
and I try to pretend I don't care
but I do
"No sleep last night,
too busy thinkin of you.
I was tryin to figure out how I could fix things,
but I can't.
You wouldn't want me to anyway,
so I guess I'll just have to stop loving you somehow.
And only love the memory of me actually thinking you cared.
*It hurt bad.
I shouldn't waste my tears, I know.
It's kind of too late to say that.
I've already unleashed thousands,
cuz every thought I ever had
was about you.
And every dream I ever wished
came true -
when you entered my life.
And now you're slowly disappearing,
so I didn't sleep last night. "
"*Next time you question me,
I'll take it offensively.
No more bein nice,
you should've thought twice
about hurtin me.
*Ima make you feel like I do,
if it's even possible for you.
Cuz I don't think you care about anything..
and you're not even aware
of any of the pain you put me through.
I wish I could say I don't love you,
but that would be lying,
and that's something I won't do.
Cuz I wouldn't wanna end up bein like you!
*Oh how I wish I could see tears
seep through your eyes,
but even that wouldn't be enough
to cover up the lies
you kept from me. "
"As my heart lies in broken pieces upon the ground,
You don't even know the pieces exist.
As my tears fall like liquid diamonds upon my cheeks,
You don't even feel the pain I am going through.
You don't even know about
The broken pieces of the heart that still loves you
And that always will.
As my voice echoes through the silent atmosphere,
You don't even hear the resounding cry.
As the mist swirls silently around me, chilling the tears,
You don't even care that I suffer the agony of lost love.
You wouldn't even look back
To see the pale face of the girl who loved you
And who always will. "
he played me like a blond
i was to busy faling for that smile
to ever notice what he was doing
well i was in total love he was well
lets say he wasent my friends
got me out but boy was i hurt
i still need him i tel my firends i am ok
and he is a jerk but that jerk has my heart
and well he was found someone new.
it hurts me inside to see them together
i am back where i started he played me for a blond!
i should have thought faster
i didnt have a clue
i was irrational and what not
but i should have came to you
the sad thing is, you came back
trying to bring me home
ur eyes were filled with so many tears
oh...now i feel so alone
why couldn't i look past the void
that kept us far apart
i couldn't find a way to forgive you
because u had broken my heart
and now it's all so different
we both changed a lot
u moved on and found a girl
it's like you just forgot
while im slowly punishing myself
for not figuring out why
and im completely lost and so confused
because i CANT say good bye"

My love, my heart my soul is my gift to you

My love, my heart, my soul is my gift to you
Your smile, your love is the only reward I would want

P recious, like a gem made by angels to shine forever
R eleasing the passion inside me that burns for you
I ntertwining our destinies, so that we two soul mates
N ow and forever, can live out our hopes and dreams
C reating our own bond of life, to overcome the challenges
E xplore the mysteries, and to enjoy life as it should be
S haring the peace and love, that everyone looks for
S o in the end I want nothing, because I have everything I need

Broken Love And Memories

Broken Love And Memories

Memories are all that remains,
Of a perfect love gone wrong,
Memories of your warm smile,
Of your soft loving caresses,
And your sweet tender kisses,

Memories so bitter yet so sweet,
Where my lips curl into a smile,
Yet the joy never to reach my eyes,
As unbidden tears streak down,

Memories of a classic love story,
That ended on a rain soaked day,
As if the sky saw and empathized,
And weeped along with my heart,

Moments we had spent together,
Will live and last forever,
As unforgettable memories,
To be played over and over,

Memories are all that I have left,
Of a love that once burned bright,
Now masked, dimmed and dying,
But it is in this eternal moment,
That I love you the most,

But it is too late to turn back now,
For we have taken a one way road,
To memories and might have beens,
And used up all our given chances,

So now, while I hurt and ache,
I will also pray, hope and wait,
For a gentle and loving heart,
To heal and revive this love broken soul,
And give a new home to this orphaned heart...…

You Mean The World to Me

You mean the world to me. I cant bear to see myself without you. Having the taught of living without you, is something unnatural to me. We have been at it for 5 year, the best of my life. We argue and fight. We scream and we cry. And even after all that we have true love. You and I are like the moon and night sky. We are perfect together. But some hate us. We have true love within each other and everyday its stronger. Place your hand on mine and I shall do the same. A promise we have made, to love each other always. Together forever is what I want. I hope its the same for you. Don't worry about me been so far. Faithful I will remain. Shall you remain too. Never will I leave you. Till the day that we are apart by death. And even then immortal we will remain. Our love will never die!
love,

THE END

THE END

life goes on,
so thats what they say.
as long as your heart,
still beats away.
but my life has ended,
my heart has stopped.
its no longer beating,
it just had to drop.

i fell for the lies,
like all the time.
you told me you loved me,
and that you were mine.
but now that your gone,
and your lies disappeared.
i can finally be me,
and be forever cleared.

my life is good,
my life is great.
without you here,
i'll set my life straight.
i will always miss,
the way you used to laugh.
the way you could,
make me smile when im sad.

i will always love you,
and forever care.
i wont ever forget,
the times we shared.
but its not enough,
to go back again.
cause this time
it really is the end.

WHO CARES

WHO CARES
If she saw me now, would she hate me?
If she saw me frown, would she still "baby" me?
If she saw everything I've done, would she cry?
If she saw everything I've been through, would she wipe the tear from my eye?

When I laugh, does she smile?
When I cry, is she still by my side?
When I'm angry, would she still be the one person, who talks to me?
Or would she tell everyone else to stay away, for their own safety?

Why is she gone?
Why do I still miss her?
Why can't I get over the fact that i have to live without her?

Was she really the only one who understood me?
Did she really even care?
Why was she the only one, who was ever there?
Why must the one person I ever trusted in my life be gone?

What did I do to deserve this?
What did she do to deserve this?
Is this a punishment?

Why can no one answer my questions?
Why can't God answer my prayers?
Is it simple because he does not care?
...
Is she really the only one who cared??
...

I am sorry that I made you cry

I am sorry that I made you cry
It hurts me so bad that I want to die.
In you I have found a love that is true,
And my heart is filled with love for you.
I am sorry that I have hurt you and you are in pain,
But without you, my life will not be the same.
As I sit here writing this to you,
I am crying, thinking how much I was a fool.
I love you so much and I am sorry that we got into a fight,
I just wish that I could have made it up to you on that night,
I dont want to break up and I wish we didnt have this fight,
I just wish that this were so,
I never have loved anyone else as much as I loved you,
I thought that you should know.
I am sorry whatever should I do?
I want to take the time and apologize to you.
You fill my heart with joy, and you make my life complete,
Everytime you come around me my heart skips a beat.
I leave my phone on and I lye by it every night,
Just in case you call me if you feel something is not right.
Every night I think of you as I lye in the dark,
And I close my eyes and I see you holding on to me with your head against my heart.
Before I go and put this poem to an end,
I want to say I am sorry and it will never happen again.

The Black Rose

The Black Rose

I dont know what to do
I can only think of you
I dont know what to say
Tonight I'll only pray

Asking god for my forgiveness
For he will be my only witness
To this crime about to be committed
Because my world is only tinted

I'm sorry for what I did
I know I was just a kid
I'm sorry you never knew
But that was your fault to

For you never saw just how much I hurt inside
Lonely and bleeding with no where to hide

Watch the red drip down the blade
Now my debt will be paid
But only with the ultimate price
One more cut, a deeper slice

I feel faint I can not see
Darkness is taking over me
I'm consumed and left to die
With one more tear shed left to cry

I'll never see the flowers bloom
Or the grass begin to swoon
For I'll be below them six feet under
Nor will I hear the rapturous thunder

This is my last wish before I die
While righting this letter I can only sigh
For I wish I could have stayed much longer
But for this world I'd need to be stronger

"I wish you bury me with a rose
Black like coal it rubs against my nose
For nothing is as beautiful as I can see
Is that black rose that died with me...

I just want one more day with you

I just want one more day with you


I'm so sad and depressed
Is all I want to do is rest
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can't fight

I think of you lying in that bed
And wonder if there is anything I could have said
I wish you were still here
But I know that you are still near

I love you more than you know
I just wish you didn't have to go
I just want one more day with you
And I know thats what you would have wanted too

I miss you more and more each day
There is so much more we had to say
I know I will see you again
But my life is just started to begin.

ROSES FOR MY ROSE

Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose.
And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day.
" "My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,
The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know."
"The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance."
"Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."

"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.
There also is another thing, that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago."

"Then, should ever, I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...
"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."

"I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife."

"You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."

"When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."

"Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock."

"He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,

And place the roses where we are, together once again

FORGIVENESS

FORGIVENESS!!!


Love, Truth, Fears, Trust, Pain, Death, Kindness,
Why do you abuse these emotions?
“I love you.”
Why do you ask these words when you don't mean it?
“I swear I’m telling you the truth!”
Why do you swear? If you are lying?
“I want to chase your fears away.”
Why do you say that? If in the end I’ll fear you in the end?
“Trust me, I want what's best for you.”
Why did you say that? If now I am too scared to trust myself now.
“I will heal the pain within your heart”
How? If you put it there in the first place?
“I will save you from death.”
How? If you already killed me inside?
“My kindness is so wonderful it’ll make you fly.”
Well now I’m falling. And are you going to help me again?
No...
I see now... I understand...
You never meant to keep the promise.
You never meant to make anyone happy.
You only wanted to use and play with everyone’s emotions.
You said love and you got hate.
You said truth and got lies.
You said fears, you got even more.
You said trust and received none
You said pain and cause pain into others.
You said death and killed the light in our hearts.
You said kindness and we are waiting to see when we’ll get it.
You are nothing or no one to hurt us like that!
But...
Even through the lies and the hurt.
You can still come to me and I’ll still be your friend.
Because there’s something that you forgot .......
Forgiveness.



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The most painful death

The most painful death
If you could only tell by touching
exactly how i feel
If you could look and tell
why my broken heart will never heal
but you cant touch my heart
and tell it's You i love
if you only knew what my heart tells you when we hug
If i told you how at night i pray for you
the way you look at me would change
I told you i loved you many times
but you only percieved it as playing
I feel so close to you
if you only knew how much i would hate to let you go
But my love for you might pass out from my broken soul
now it tortures me
to hold you in my mind
now i know from my own life
falling in love is the most painful way of dying



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As I sit out here

As I sit out here,
Just one person comes to mind,
I ask myself why,
But no answer comes to mind,
Maybe it’s because I miss her or maybe because I wish she was here by my side,
But still no true answer comes to my mind,
But as I sit here,
My heart start beating faster and faster,
Suddenly my heart skips a beat,
I can't breathe I can't think I can't see,
I'm perplexed,
I ask myself why,
But only one answer can come to mind,
And it’s you,
You are my kryptonite,
You are the one that makes me weak,
The one that I look forward to seeing every waking minute that I breathe,
You are my all,

My Angel

My Angel
You come from the heavens
You come for me
For only me
Your heart shining brighter then the brightest star
Guiding me through darkness you save me
From the darkness that was once home
You take me by my hand and lift me up
You take me in your arms into the gate of the heavens
You take me to a bright light
You are my Angel

And I would do anything for love

And I would do anything for love
I'd run right into hell and back
I would do anything for love
I'll never lie to you and that's a fact

But I'll never forget the way you feel right now--
Oh no--no way--
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that
Anything for love
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that

Some days it don't come easy
Some days it don't come hard
Some days it don't come at all
and these are the days that never end

Maybe I'm crazy
But it's crazy and it's true
I know you can save me
No one else can save me but you

As long as the planets are turning
As long as the stars are burning
As long as your dreams are comming true--
You better believe it!--

That I would to anything for love
And I'll be there until the final act--
I would do anything for love!
And I'll take a vow and seal a pact--

But I'll never forgive myself if we don't go all the way--
Tonight--
I would do anything for love!
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that...

I would do anything for love
Anything you've been dreaming of
But I just won't do that...

Somedays I pray for silence
Somedays I pray for sould
Somedays I just pray to the God of Sex and Drums and Rock'N Roll

Some night I lose the feeling
Some nights I lose control
Some night I just lose it all when I watch you dance and the thunder rolls

Maybe I'm lonely
And that's all I'm qualified to be
There's just one and only
The one and only promise I can keep

As long as the wheels are turning
As long as the fires are burning
As long as your prayers are coming true--
You better believe it--!

That I would do anything for love!
And you know it's true and that's a face
I would do anything for love!
And there'll never be no turning back--

But I'll never do it better than I do it with you
So long--
So long--
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that

I would do anything for love
Anything you've been dreaming of
But I won't do that...

But I'll never stop dreaming of you
Every night of my life--
No way--

I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that!

Will you raise me up?
Will you help me down?
Will you get me right out if this Godforsaken town?
Will you make it all a little less cold?

I can do that!
I can do that!

Will you hold me sacred?
Will you hold me tight?
Can you colorize my life I'm so sick of black and white?
Can you make it all a little less old?

I can do that!
I can do that!

Will you make me some magic
With your own two hands?
Can you build an emerald city with these grains of sand?
Can you give me something I can take home?

I can do that!
I can do that!

Will you cater to every fantasy I got?
Will ya hose me down with holy water--if I get to hot--?
Will ya take me to places I've never known?

I can do that!
I can do that!

After a while you'll forget everything
It was a brief interlude
And a midsummer night's fling
And you'll see that it's time to move on

I won't do that!
I won't do that!

I WONT LET U DIE MY DEAR

I seek in prayerful words, dear friend,
My heart's true wish to send you,
That you may know, that far or near,
My loving thoughts attend you.

I cannot find a truer word,
Nor better to address you;
Nor song, nor poem have I heard,
Is sweeter than God bless you!

God bless you! So I've wished you all
Of brightness life possesses;
For can there any joy at all
Be yours unless God blesses?

God bless you! So I breathe a charm
Lest grief's dark night oppress you,
For how can sorrow bring you harm
If 'tis God's way to bless you?

And so, "through all thy days
May shadows touch thee never - "
But this alone - God bless thee -
Then art thou safe forever.

How do I tell you how I feel about you

How do I tell you how I feel about you

When
everytime i think of you my body shakes
everytime i see you my knees grow weak and
everytime i'm with you i dont want the time to end.

When
everytime i look into your eyes, i wish i was there
everytime i see you smile my heart melts and
every night before i go to sleep i pray we dont end.

I've tried somehow to say:
you're the sun that lights up my sky
the wind that keeps me cool on a hot summer day
and sweet incense that keeps me on a natural high

I want so much to tell you:
that without you with me each day my day isn't complete
that since day one I've always wanted to be with you
that no matter what's going on in my life
you're the reason there's a smile on my face
and that loving you seems to be all I need to know.

But everytime I want to
the words just wont come out
to you it may sound mushy or too cute
you may not believe it so it's better I keep my mouth closed

Then to try to tell you exactly whats on my mind
yet I wish to tell you that I'm beginning to
love you more with each passing of the day
and that I want to be with you
come whatever may.

Just how much I love you

Have you ever bothered to realize
how much you mean to me?
I care so much for you inside
and miss you so deeply.

I sometimes sit for hours
Just to hear from you
And when you never ring
I'm unsure what to do

I lay awake in bed sometimes
With you stuck in my head
Sometimes I question your love for me
Or that your with someone else instead

Sometimes I walk at night
Just to gaze at a lonely star
Sometimes I fall to tears
Because you are so far

And every now and then
When I do speak to you
I always get worried
Incase you say we're through

So do you ever wonder
Just what I'm doing too?
And do you know
Just how much I think of you

Because if tomorrow doesn't come
And I haven't spoke to you
How will you ever know?
Just how much I love you

If only I had the guts, to tell you how I feel

If only I had the guts, to tell you how I feel,
I would hold you forever, and show you that I'm real.
And if I could, I would capture every memory that we shared,
Seal and treasure it, never forget the times we cared...

But right now, I just have to let our fate flow,
Going down the right path, the one that we both know.
I don't want to admit- too many feelings of mine,
In case I scare you off, but I really am genuine.

I just hope that what I see, of you is just the truth,
Because I’d love for both of us to eventually pursue.
I’m standing here, as patient as I know how,
And even if you disagree, my mind will disavow.

I wish we both could just want the same thing,
As each day progresses, happiness is what I’d bring.
You know that we are made for each other,
So just give me a chance, just don’t say never.

You really worry me when you blow hot and cold,
If there is a problem just let your mind unfold.
And I know that you're afraid of commitment,
I can be too, but just think of the times we've spent.

So as time moves on, I hope we get together,
So when the time is right, I can say - always and forever.
And right now, these feelings I have to hide,
Because I’m afraid, ill lose this chance for life.

So from this day onwards, I will wait,
For you to come and tell it straight,
I hope the decision you choose is me,
Can’t keep my hopes too high,
I’ll just have 2 wait and see.



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The rose that you threw from your head

The rose that you threw from your head,
is now grown into a plant next to my bed,
it has left so many beautiful roses to see,
but i know only the thorns belongs to me.

Everyday i water the plant with my tears,
for every tear a beautiful rose appears,
you say these roses belongs only to you,
what about my tears,on which roses grew.

Even in darkness,i gave them the sunshine,
so that they could live with my life line,
you can see all those roses are only red,
because i give them life with my blood.

You can only see the beauty the rose shows,
but the pain behind those rose no one knows,
every rose is nothing but a piece of my heart,
that has died and given your rose a new start.

These roses are not grown to keep on ur head,
i want these roses on my grave when i'm dead,
so that i can feel you are always close to me,
living in my heart,even when my soul is set free.

you are one,whom in my life i would always miss,
i'm leaving behind your rose to understand this,
if you don't still understand my writing prose,
this poem is all about"The Story of Your Rose"

Why I feel this way

Why I feel this way
Only time will tell
As I wish upon a star by this wishing well

We seem so perfect together
Like lighter than a feather

When we walk together
It seems like forever

Together we seem in love
I feel the soar of a dove
Brush by
Like an eagle in the sky

You mean so much to me
But im afraid that we could not be

I want to tell you so bad
One day maybe I will and you’ll be glad

So in this poem I write
This is what I feel tonight



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I LOVE YOU I sit here thinking about words

I LOVE YOU

I sit here thinking about words that I should say
Should I tell you my feelings today?

I really like you a lot
But how you feel is my only thought

We have never talked
And for now I will keep these feelings locked

At lunch maybe I should sit with you
But will that make you realize that the rumors are true

In a way I want you to know
So in this poem my feelings show

Hun I love you
And all I want to know is do you feel the same way too.



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If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here

If time could stand still, I’d freeze it here,
So you’d always hold me, close and near.
In your arms, where I’m meant to be,
Filled with the perfect love you’ve given me.

A bond so strong, a hold so tight,
To know you’re the one; my ‘Mr. Right’.
A blessing sent from up above,
In you I’ve found my one true love.

Our lives entwined to be as one,
Upon this journey we’ve just begun.
Where you and I will find no less,
Than eternal love and happiness.

I love you more than you can imagine

I love you more than you can imagine
When I see your eyes it brighten up my day
I love you more than words can ever tell
Even more than what im about to say

I don't remember the last time i felt like this
You make me feel the real me
You don't know how happy it makes me
When I can share things with you,comfortably

I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me laugh
And you give me hope....
When things get a little sad

All of your hugs makes me feel free
From all the drama and trouble that life brings my way
If i would have 1 wish and one wish only
I wish for this love to be here to stay

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

I cant go to sleep I’m just thinking of you

I cant go to sleep I’m just thinking of you
Thinking of tonight
And all of the feelings coming through
When I’m with you,
There’s nowhere else I want to be
It’s just right
You with me
You make me melt when you kiss me
You make me faint when you touch me
I have all these emotions and I’m not sure why
I’ve never felt this way about anyone in my life
Its 2 a.m. and I’m thinking of you
And all the crazy things you do
I’m so happy I want to cry
Just the fact that I’m with my dream guy
Your perfect in everyway
I prayed for someone like you
And God sent you my way
I’m wide-awake thinking of you
You must be an angel
There’s no other explanation
These feelings are real
Not just flirtation
I love being with you
Just watching the stars
Is so romantic with you
I don’t care what anyone else has to say
It’s just you and me
Forever I pray
I’m crying myself to sleep thinking of you
These are tears of happiness
Its amazing how one person can transform your life
You’re all I want
Everything else is pointless
I don’t know how I feel
But I know that its forreal
I can honestly say I love you
While I cant go to sleep thinking of you



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Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new

Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new,
Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down.

Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,
Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,
Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,
Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.

Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always darlin', after all is said and done,
Love me always darlin', until all our life is through,
Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you!

You are my air

You are my air
The sun in my day
The moon in my night
The spring in my step
You are my everything.

You are the stars in the sky
The birds in the trees
The shimmer, the sparkle, the shine.

Without the light you put into my life
I would be nothing
A single leaf on the ground in autumn,
Lost, forgotten, alone.

Before i knew you,
I was nothing.
Now I am everything,
With you at my side,
I am invincible!

Feel the same ,
You are loved so much,
I love you now and forever
You are my darling, my love
You are my everything
I love you so much.

A gentle word like a spark of light

A gentle word like a spark of light,
Illuminates my soul
And as each sound goes deeper,
It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner, no dark place,
YOUR LOVE cannot fill
And if the world starts causing waves,
It's your devotion that makes them still

And yes you always speak to me,
In sweet honesty and truth
Your caring heart keeps out the rain,
YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

So thank you my Love for being there,
For supporting me, my life
I'll do the same for you, you know,
My Beautiful, Darling Wife.

Saying I do is more than saying I love you

Saying I do
Is more than saying I love you
It goes beyond describing how my love is true
Because words are not enough to express my love for you.

Saying I do
Is like saying I am here for you
That I am ready to see what the future may bring
Because we are together in everything.

Saying I do
Is saying I am now complete because of you
That the pieces of the puzzle called "my life"
Becomes a beautiful picture called "our love".

And now I am saying "I DO"
As I walk down the aisle with you
This is a lifetime promise that I will hold
A promise I make until we grow old.



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I Will Love You Until I Die

I Will Love You Until I Die
I love you...
I can not leave with out you
I can not stop thinking about you
I can love you
I can be with you
I can leave with you
All I’m trying to say is I will love you until I die

Sometimes I think I still can’t live without you

Sometimes I think I still can’t live without you.
A dull ache inside me
Realizes my yearning to be a part of your life.The years have come and gone.
I never hear your name.
I don’t even know anyone who knows you.Most of the time I believe I have changed I
Outgrown the ME who loved YOU.
Then,A song, a scene, a scent
Catches my heart off guard,And reminds me of you.Sometimes,
Even after all these years,
I think I still can’t live without you

I’ll stand by your side

I’ll stand by your side
Help fight all your fights
And never leave you alone
And when you cry
I’ll get a cup and let you fill it up
And dump it in the ocean
And we can sit and watch as your pain floats away
And when you are happy I’ll capture it in a glass and when you are blue I’ll pull it out and show you
And when you are old and dying I’ll be by your side crying
And when you're gone
I’ll close your eyes
And whisper to you
See you on the other side



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It’s hard to find the words

It’s hard to find the words to tell you how much I still love you, how you broke my heart
How we once were perfect but now we are so far from it. you always told me you loved me and you cared about me. you held me in your arms and kissed my face when I was crying. you went out of your way to make me the happiest girl in the world. now all we can do is fight and be mad over the life that didn’t work out as planned. how can you not understand people make mistakes, life isn’t perfect and can never be so why do you search. all I can say is I'm sorry and I love you and maybe one day you'll remember me

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Your hope in my heart is the rarest treasure

Your hope in my heart is the rarest treasure
Your Name on my tongue is the sweetest word
My choicest hours
Are the hours I spend with You --
O Allah, I can't live in this world
Without remembering You--
How can I endure the next world
Without seeing Your face?
I am a stranger in Your country
And lonely among Your worshippers:
This is the substance of my complaint.

if ur not the one then y does my soul feel glad today

if ur not the one then y does my soul feel glad today?
if ur not the one then y does ma hands fit urs this way?
if u r not mine so y ur heart return ma call?
if u r not mine then y i have the strangest thing at all?
i never no what the future brings but i no that ur here with me now,
we'll make it thru n i hope that u r the one i share ma life with!

i dowanna run away but i cant take it ,i dont understand, if i am not made 4 u, then y does ma heart tell me that i am?
is there any way that i could stay in ur arms.

if i dont need u then y i am crying on ma bed
if i dont need u then y does ur name resound in ma head?
if ur not 4 me then y does this distance main ma life?
if ur not 4 me then y do i dream of u as ma wife?

i dont ly so far away but i no that this is much true.
we'll make it thru, n i hope u r the one that i share ma life with.
and i hope that u could be the one i die with.
and i pray that ur the one that i build ma home with.
i hope i live u all the ma life!

i dowanna run away but i cant take it ,i dont understand, if i am not made 4 u, then y does ma heart tell me that i am?
is there any way that i could stay in ur arms.

cz i miss u but its so strong that it takes ma breath away
and i breathe u into ma heart and pray for the strength to stand today. cz i loooove u whether its wrong or right and though i cant be with u tonight u no ma heart is by ur side.