Beautiful dreamer, wake unto me

Beautiful dreamer, wake unto me,
Starlight and dewdrops are waiting for thee;
Sounds of the rude world heard in the day,
Lull'd by the moonlight have all pass'd away!

Beautiful dreamer, queen of my song,
List while I woo thee with soft melody;
Gone are the cares of life's busy throng.

Beautiful dreamer, awake unto me!
Beautiful dreamer, awake unto me!

Beautiful dreamer, out on the sea,
Mermaids are chaunting the wild lorelie;
Over the streamlet vapors are borne,
Waiting to fade at the bright coming morn.

Beautiful dreamer, beam on my heart,
E'en as the morn on the streamlet and sea;
Then will all clouds of sorrow depart,

Beautiful dreamer, awake unto me!

I've never been for the word love

I've never been for the word love
As silly as it may seem
Too many people just say it
But not knowing what it means

And even though I am in love
It's something I'll never show
I'll never stop to say that words
So I'll guess you'll never know

I've never been for promises
They make people look like fools
No one ever means to keep them
They'll be broken just like rules

And even though I am sincere
And feel it's something I owe
I can't say I'll be there for you
So I'll guess you'll never know

I've never been for love symbols
Those really stupid tokens
People give them out like presents
Then leave your heart all broken

And even though I want to kiss
You under the mistletoe
I don't feel its right to do that
So I'll guess you never know

I've never been for anyone
Cause there's no one just like you
How can I tell you how I feel
When this world made love untrue

And even though I feel for you
I'll let my emotions go
I don't think these words mean enough
So I'll guess you'll never know

I've never been for sad goodbyes
Cause I don't know what I'll lose
I've never left a friend behind
It is something I will refuse

And even though I really want you
Away my love, I will throw
I can't say what you want to hear
So I'll guess you'll never know

Loneliness You left me alone

Loneliness

You left me alone
So I sit here and cry
I'm alone with my knife
Soon I shall die
You told me you loved me
I thought it was true
I saw you with that girl
She was all over you
I stood staring
Your eyes met mine
You started running
But I had already died
I ran home
With tears in my eyes
I knew what i would do
No matter how many tries
I locked the door
And sat on my bed
No one can stop me
No matter how many tears shed
I take my knife
And slit my wrists
I feel the blood draining
This is my last gift
You break down the door
And enter my room
You sit next to me
You don't know of my doom
You don't know what happened
Let me explain
I only nod
I feel a bit faint
I was going home
She needed a ride
I stopped at the Sonic
My throat was so dry
Next thing I knew
She had me in back
Then yo walked up
I wanted you back
It's too late
I simply say
I show you my wrists
You can only gaze
You grab a few tissues
And press them on the wounds
You hold me tight
I feel my life sliping
The last thing I know
The last thing I say
Goodbye my love
Then all fades away
I'm in a bright place
The street glitters gold
I begin to walk forward
Until you grab a hold
I turn around
To see your face
You're smiling at me
You're in this place?
What do you think?
You ask grinning
Without you
My life's not worth living
You wrap your arms around me
And give me a kiss
We walk hand in hand
Into eternal bliss
It was a bad life
With the perfect death
My love is here with me
This is true happiness



_________________

Last Day

Last Day

If today were the last day I had with you,
What would we say?
What would we do?
Would it be just another day with you?
I tell you I love you.
You say okay.
What do you mean?
This is my last day.
I ask to kiss you.
You say sure.
I lean over
And put my lips to yours.
The end of the night
I give you a hug
I say goodbye
You simply shrug.
I cry on my bed
And pick up the gun
I put the barrel to my head
And pull the trigger.
If today was the last day I had with you,
What would we say?
What would we do?
Would it be just another day with you?

I was sitting in a dark corner

I was sitting in a dark corner
When suddenly it hit me
Just like lighting and thunder
I knew neither pain or happiness
My nights were cold and lonely
My days were short and weary
I was between shadows and lights
And came under the impression
That this life was the only thing given to me
You took me away from the perilous world
And turn my so called shelter into a paradise
I felt tranquility, it was something new to me
My life blossomed and everything was awesome
I remember this feeling, this emotion, which was full of devotion
Love, just extraordinary love.

I try, I really try to forget

I try, I really try to forget
How it was for us
Lying in your strong arms
My love for you filling my heart to overflowing
Almost breaking out of my chest
The feelings were so intense.

I try! I really try to tell myself
I WILL love again !
Then I see your smiling face in my inner vision
I hear the memory of your voice
The one that made my wings take flight
And my body reel with my longing

When I wake in the cold dawn, alone
Even the pillows I place where you used to lie
No longer comfort me….even half asleep!

You are gone! You are gone………
And my heart is an empty hollow
And my mind crucifies me all over again.

Never give your heart to this degree
Love by all means and with a passion!
But never put your soul completely on the line
For a mere mortal……..

Love and trust, take risks and live.
Of course do these things…
But keep a tiny bit of soul to cuddle up to
A tiny reason and part of you
Which wants to live and try again

Otherwise you will become as one
Who enters the party dressed to kill
Makes wonderful conversation
And everyone laughs alongside
Never realising your heart
Is a cold and inaccessible tomb.

wings to fly

wings to fly

How can I always lend a hand
But ignore the cries within myself
It brings me joy to bring you a smile
But my emptiness still sits up on the shelf

Inside my heart will always bleed
But I will never let it be shown on my face
Only the tear that falls down my cheek
Will give you a glimpse, a shadow, a trace

I suffocate when I try to breathe
The chains you gave won't let my body go
I have dreams, and needs, and wants
My body is numb, I think maybe you should know

I struggle with my demons each day
You feed them while you slowly watch me die
Please let me be and please set me free
I want to smile as I look up at the sky

I want the moon to brighten the night
I want the clouds to pass me on by
I want the stars to guide me to heaven
And I want wings to life me and fly

On His Blindness

When I consider how my light is spent
Ere half my days in this dark world and wide,
And that one talent which is death to hide,
Lodged with me useless, though my soul more bent
To serve therewith my Maker, and present
My true account, lest He returning chide,
'Doth God exact day labor, light denied?'
I fondly ask. But Patience to prevent
That murmur soon replies, 'God doth not need
Either man's work or his own gifts. Who best
Bear his mild yoke, they serve him best. His state
Is kingly: thousands at his bidding speed,
And post o'er land and ocean without rest;
They also serve who only stand and wait.'

Punctuated Lies

Punctuated Lies
Articulated brilliantly,
a bitter disguise,
My inbox is full
with your punctuated lies.

Consonants and vowels,
perfectly placed,
Deceit in each line,
so evenly spaced.

Sincerities facade in
twelve point font,
Spinning words in a web
to get what you want.

X’s and O’s that
seem out of place,
Spell-checked and perfect
all honesty erased.

Seduction with grammar,
cheap and pathetic,
I try to delete you,
your voice so esthetic.

Recycle-bin escapee
risen from dead,
Quite the cordial letter
new lies never said.

Pretend I am immune,
Ignore the “I love you”
(the one you didn’t mean).

Vocabulary dancing
you take the lead,
Such eloquent deception
open wounds to bleed...


FORWARD, Baby, forward,
to the one who wears your ring,
‘Cause this shall be your last dance
as I DELETE your everything.

I wonder how you’ll explain,
what fancy things you’ll say,
When she can see whose IN-BOX
you’ve been playing in today.

One year already, passed

One year already, passed,
countless tears, I'd poured,
so much dualities to be fought,
to accept that you left...

All love affairs I had, same choice to be made,
to stay or to satisfy,
why so much suffering,
why taken there to be so intense?

However it was not the first time,
knew, at first, that I had to be wary of you,
you resembled what I call "Passion",
and me, I am a girl rather of "Reason".

How would have been able to avoid liking myself?
did not know how to protect myself from it,
who does not like this impression:
to be pervaded by overpowering shiver?

Infatuation for attraction,
impregnated all being in your presence,
this need to merge...
even when elsewhere they are loved?

Always I questioned,
to know, to choose in front of this duality?
all my life I shall have, however make the same choice,
to go back towards my home, towards my "Reason".

Almost one year when our history is finished,
think of you more than ever, I love you, someplace in the infinity,
left " my Passion " behind me,
passion which will have put in danger
the only weapon, I've, my "Reason"...

To My Dear and Loving Husband

If ever two were one, then surely we.
If ever man were loved by wife, then thee;
If ever wife was happy in a man,
Compare with me ye women if you can.
I prize thy love more that whole mines of gold,
Or all the riches that the East doth hold.
My love is such that rivers cannot quench,
Nor ought but love from thee give recompense.
Thy love is such I can no way repay,
The heavens reward thee manifold I pray.
Then while we live, in love let’s so persever,
That when we live no more, we may live ever.

Remembrance

Cold in the earth—and the deep snow piled above thee,
Far, far removed, cold in the dreary grave!
Have I forgot, my only Love, to love thee,
Severed at last by Time's all-severing wave?

Now, when alone, do my thoughts no longer hover
Over the mountains, on that northern shore,
Resting their wings where heath and fern-leaves cover
That noble heart for ever, ever more?

Cold in the earth, and fifteen wild Decembers
From those brown hills have melted into spring:
Faithful indeed is the spirit that remembers
After such years of change and suffering!

Sweet Love of youth, forgive if I forget thee,
While the world's tide is bearing me along:
Sterner desires and other hopes beset me,
Hopes which obscure, but cannot do thee wrong!

No later light has lightened up my heaven;
No second morn has ever shone for me:
All my life's bliss from thy dear life was given,
All my life's bliss is in the grave with thee.

But when the days of golden dreams had perished,
And even Despair was powerless to destroy,
Then did I learn how existence could be cherished,
Strengthened, and fed without the aid of joy;

Then did I check the tears of useless passion,
Weaned my young soul from yearning after thine;
Sternly denied its burning wish to hasten
Down to that tomb already more than mine.

And even yet I dare not let it languish,
Dare not indulge in Memory's rapturous pain;
Once drinking deep of that divinest anguish,
How could I seek the empty world again?



_________________

From Paradise Lost

Of Man's first disobedience, and the fruit
Of that forbidden tree whose mortal taste
Brought death into the world, and all our woe,
With loss of Eden, till one greater Man
Restore us, and regain the blissful seat,
Sing, Heav'nly Muse, that, on the secret top
Of Oreb, or of Sinai, didst inspire
That shepherd who first taught the chosen seed
In the beginning how the Heav'ns and Earth
Rose out of Chaos; or, if Sion hill
Delight thee more, and Siloa's brook that flow'd
Fast by the oracle of God, I thence
Invoke thy aid to my advent'rous song,
That with no middle flight intends to soar
Above th' Aonian mount, while it pursues
Things unattempted yet in prose or rhyme.
And chiefly thou, O Spirit, that dost prefer
Before all temples th' upright heart and pure,
Instruct me, for thou know'st; thou from the first
Wast present, and, with mighty wings outspread,
Dovelike sat'st brooding on the vast abyss,
And mad'st it pregnant: what in me is dark
Illumine; what is low, raise and support;
That, to the height of this great argument,
I may assert Eternal Providence,
And justify the ways of God to men.

something

something.....

And so it came to be
this isolation that I am
I can only look to me
to find the way it all began -
this confusion, constant
hunger for something more than this
I strive to find this being
that I envision, yet seem to miss.
Could it be that I am empty-
or maybe a little lost?
Could it be that I am lonely,
or seek happiness at any cost?
This never-ending Something
that I am living deep inside,
depicts the illusion of myself
and all I have to hide.

I was wrong...so very wrong

I was wrong...so very wrong.

I thought you were special, different from the other guys,
But I was wrong, so very wrong about you...
It's plain to see why you have stopped messaging me,
even a 3 year-old kid could tell the reason.

I thought a guy like you, sees beyond one's looks,
But I was wrong, so very wrong about you...
If I was prettier, if I was more popular,
you would not hesitate to be my friend, would you?

I thought this friendship of ours could last,
But I was wrong, so very wrong about it...
I would give anything to keep this friendship,
but would it be of any use?

I thought you would be there to dry my tears,
But I was wrong, so very wrong about you...
A million tears I cry would not salvage this friendship,
so why should I go on crying day and night?
I thought you were the one for me, my soul mate,
But I was wrong, so very wrong about you...
Now that my heart had been shattered,
somehow I can see better, without this illusion.

Why did you let me fall so deeply in love with you,
without intending to catch me when I fell?
I deserved it, they say, but it's true,
because I was wrong, so very wrong about things...

Now that it's all over and done,
and time for me to move on without you,
all I hope for, is for you to remember me,
that is not too much to ask for, is it?

Broken Dreams

Broken Dreams


There is grey in your hair.
Young men no longer suddenly catch their breath
When you are passing;
But maybe some old gaffer mutters a blessing
Because it was your prayer
Recovered him upon the bed of death.
For your sole sake - that all heart's ache have known,
And given to others all heart's ache,
From meagre girlhood's putting on
Burdensome beauty - for your sole sake
Heaven has put away the stroke of her doom,
So great her portion in that peace you make
By merely walking in a room.
Your beauty can but leave among us
Vague memories, nothing but memories.
A young man when the old men are done talking
Will say to an old man, "Tell me of that lady
The poet stubborn with his passion sang us
When age might well have chilled his blood.'
Vague memories, nothing but memories,
But in the grave all, all, shall be renewed.
The certainty that I shall see that lady
Leaning or standing or walking
In the first loveliness of womanhood,
And with the fervour of my youthful eyes,
Has set me muttering like a fool.
You are more beautiful than any one,
And yet your body had a flaw:
Your small hands were not beautiful,
And I am afraid that you will run
And paddle to the wrist
In that mysterious, always brimming lake
Where those What have obeyed the holy law
paddle and are perfect. Leave unchanged
The hands that I have kissed,
For old sake's sake.
The last stroke of midnight dies.
All day in the one chair
From dream to dream and rhyme to rhyme I have
ranged
In rambling talk with an image of air:
Vague memories, nothing but memories.

unnoticed

unnoticed

She is lonely
Even though you can't tell
She is reaching out
For what, she doesn't know
She will continue to sit in silence
And hope that someone may stumble across
Her and all of her emptiness
But they only hope that they do it in time
Otherwise she will have drifted too far
And she may let go
Of whatever grasp of the world she has
As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone
Nearly unnoticed.

Heaven

Does heaven have a phone number?
Mommy went to heaven,
but I need her here today.
My tummy hurts and I fell down;
I need her right away.

Operator, can you tell me
how to find her in this book?
Is heaven in the yellow part?
I don't know where to look.

I think my daddy needs her too,
at night I hear him cry.
I hear him call her name sometimes,
but I really don't know why.

Maybe if I call her,
she will hurry home to me.
Is heaven very far away?
Is it across the sea?

She's been gone a long, long time-
she needs to come home now!
I really need to reach her.
I simply don't know how.

Help me find the number, please.
Is it listed under "heaven"?
I can't read these big, big words;
I am only seven.

I'm sorry, operator,
I didn't mean to make you cry.
Is your tummy hurting too--
or is there something in your eye?

If I call my church
maybe they will know.
Mommy said when we need help
that's where we should go.

I found the number to my church
tacked up on the wall.
Thank you, operator
I'll give them a call.

I will survive

I Will Survive

I will survive this pain,
day by day it shall fade away.
And the memories we shared I will not recall,
Until there is nothing left of them at all.

I will survive

With your cruelty you tore my world apart,
so I pray to the Lord to rip you from my heart,
The man you have become I do not know,
you have caused me nothing but woe.

But I will survive

You leave me with nothing to spare,
and empty home without my daughter there.
Such evil I did not think could be true,
Why did I not see, you had this in you?

I will survive

Why did I ever make you my life?
Why did I ever become your wife?
I pray to God to dry the tears from my eyes,
But this is how it ends when love dies.

And I will survive

Someday my wounds will heal,
This pain I have, I will not feel,
I will grow stronger in everything,
And soon my new life I will begin.

I will survive

And so it came to be

And so it came to be
this isolation that I am
I can only look to me
to find the way it all began -
this confusion, constant
something....

hunger for something more than this
I strive to find this being
that I envision, yet seem to miss.
Could it be that I am empty-
or maybe a little lost?
Could it be that I am lonely,
or seek happiness at any cost?
This never-ending Something
that I am living deep inside,
depicts the illusion of myself
and all I have to hide.

the joke is on me

the joke is on me.

I keep waiting for the phone to ring
Yet I know it won't be you;
I try to fill my life with busyness
Yet all I do is think of you.

What became of us
And all our dreams and plans;
How could you turn and walk away
As I watched our castles turn to sand?

Do you never even miss me
Don't you long to caress my face;
How could you forget so easily
And You I can't erase?

I want to be in your arms again
To see the laughter in your eyes;
But I guess the joke's on me
And Oh! Was I surprised!

Loneliness is what

L , Lost love is painful. now there is
O , Only me
N , No one else. I feel
E , Emptiness inside.
L , Listen to my actions!,
I , I didn't ask for anything.
N , No one seems to care.
E , Ending it would be bliss, to end the
S , Sadness that overwhelms me and the
S , Sorrow that surrounds me.....
= = = Loneliness is what i feel everyday = = =

There you stood

There you stood
Everybody watched you play
nobody gave you a word to say?
they all turned & laughed
as you stumbled
through those
stone corridors on your way
some things never change
everydays a brand new day
with just a different face
some people can never see others
with there backs against the wall?
hearts a hurting
cold winds a blowing
heavens gonna fall
never truly fitting in
always feeling small
some times i feel so hopeless , small and lonely
sometimes i wish i was'nt born at all
fires are a burning
deep inside
sometimes i want to curl up & cry
for all the pain & hurt i feel deep inside....very deep inside

I love you more than you can imagine

I love you more than you can imagine
When I see your eyes it brighten up my day
I love you more than words can ever tell
Even more than what im about to say

I don't remember the last time i felt like this
You make me feel the real me
You don't know how happy it makes me
When I can share things with you,comfortably

I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me laugh
And you give me hope....
When things get a little sad

All of your hugs makes me feel free
From all the drama and trouble that life brings my way
If i would have 1 wish and one wish only
I wish for this love to be here to stay

All because of you

All because of you

When you first arrived,
I thought you was just another girl,
But over time you became much more,
You became my whole world.

I know that it has only,
been but a few days,
But somehow you have poisoned my mind,
You have put me into a daze.

I don't know how you've done it,
This is all very confusing to me,
But when I close my eyes,
You are all I see.

Even now as I write this poem,
All because of you,
I can't think of what to write,
My tongue has become tied too!

I don't know how to describe this feeling,
I don't know what to say,
The only thing I know,
Is that you re perfect in every way.

All because you came into my world,
I no longer know what to say or do,
All except these three little words,
"I love you"

How blessed I am that you are in my life

How blessed I am that you are in my life
Not a day goes by when I do not think of you
You make everything alright
To you I do not have to prove myself
For you know me
I love you

How blessed I am that you are in my life
How honoured I am to be a part of yours
Memories made and shared
With you the one I love
My friend, my lover, my prince...

I love the way you make me laugh

I love the way you make me laugh
I love the way you make me cry

Tears of joy stream from my eyes
As I hear your voice, a loving surprise.

I love you when you're angry
I love you when you're sad

I love you when you're glad
When you tell me of the day you had

I love you truly
I love you deeply

Ever since the day
I let you meet me

I missed you when you left
I miss you now more than ever

Making a mistake that I regret
Hoping that you are a forgiver

Without you, my life is strife
But now I ask for a second chance

Be with me and start a life
Together forever, an eternal dance

I wait for you as the days go by
My love is growing inch by inch

I cannot wait to see you again
But I wait for you, and miss

You are my air

You are my air
The sun in my day
The moon in my night
The spring in my step
You are my everything.

You are the stars in the sky
The birds in the trees
The shimmer, the sparkle, the shine.

Without the light you put into my life
I would be nothing
A single leaf on the ground in autumn,
Lost, forgotten, alone.

Before i knew you,
I was nothing.
Now I am everything,
With you at my side,
I am invincible!

Feel the same ,
You are loved so much,
I love you now and forever
You are my darling, my love
You are my everything
I love you so much.

A gentle word like a spark of light

A gentle word like a spark of light,
Illuminates my soul
And as each sound goes deeper,
It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner, no dark place,
YOUR LOVE cannot fill
And if the world starts causing waves,
It's your devotion that makes them still

And yes you always speak to me,
In sweet honesty and truth
Your caring heart keeps out the rain,
YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

So thank you my Love for being there,
For supporting me, my life
I'll do the same for you, you know,
My Beautiful, Darling Wife.

living the lie...you're mine

My life changed the day we met
I felt it deep inside,
and everyday I think to regret
I'm living the lie you're mine.

When I look into your eyes
I pretend you and me,
but you'll never see the tears I hide
when I think of what we could be.

And When I'm holding you I think
how somethin so wrong could feel so right,
and how it could all be gone in a blink
while I'm living the lie you're mine.

And it hurts me to know one day you'll leave
to be with the one you love,
when everything I love gets set free
are my feelings for you not enough?

I'd like to be your everything
your life, your shoulder, and sunshine,
but the truth keeps bringing back the pain
I'm living the lie you're mine.

Humans are a race of lies

Humans are a race of lies
Uncaring and selfish and cruel.
Hiding their selves behind hypocrisy
Pretending their lies are legit.
To survive as a person
Trickery is a necessity.
Lies and deceit are common knowledge
And love is an obsession
That cannot be cured.
The fate of our future lies in
Power hungry hands
And at the snap of a finger
It will all fall apart.

I am Finally Free

A new day sparkles with its beautiful light.
I no longer fear the darkness of the night.

I am Finally Free.

For so many days,
I felt only the rain pour down on me.
But now of your love,
I am finally free.

Waiting for you was a game I played for so long.
Thinking what in the world had I done so wrong.

But the clouds have lifted their black veil,
So my heart is free to once again take sail.

So don�t you worry about me,
I am feeling Finally Free.

Strange as it seems,
it was you who cut the strings.
With your little poem you gave my heart its wings.

So don�t even think of returning to me,
As you well put it,
you were just a mere fantasy.

And now of you I am Finally Free

This cold and frosty night I'm looking at the stars

This cold and frosty night I'm looking at the stars

In the blacken skies I see Jupiter and Mars

I remember long ago we drove to that dark place

We saw so many stars while gazing into space

Pointing out to you, Seven Sisters and the Plough

Alone its not the same looking at them now

Take some time to look above and many stars you'll see

That special night long ago looking down at you and me

And when you look into the sky and stars are shining bright

Remember just how happy were we, that cold and frosty night

I know that we are apart

I know that we are apart,
But I still love you from deep down in my heart.
I know sometimes we didn't get along,
And I'm sorry I did you wrong.
I thought we would always be together,
But things just didn't get better.
I love being with you,
And I thought you did too.
I love you very much,
And I miss your sweet touch.
I fear that I will never feel your sweet kiss,
And that is something I'm really gonna miss.
If I had only given you your space,
And changed my needy ways.
Then I wouldn't feel like this,
And you would still be with me today.
I know you wanted to go places with your friends,
But I didn't think it would end.
I'm sorry for what I put you through,
I just hope you will forgive me soon.
I miss you more than anything,
And would give my life just to be with you again.
And I didn't want you to go,
Cause I'll always love you so.

I do not need a man

I do not need a man,
This is who I am.
Independent and free,
This is the new me.

I walk alone,
I am on my own, but strong.
No one to judge if I am right or wrong.

A new adventure,
a new world to behold,
I am confident, I am bold,
I do not need a man to hold.

No longer under a man's control,
I am pushing forward towards my goal.
If I rise or if I fall,
I shall know I did it all.

I am learning I am so much more,
then what you saw with your eyes before.
All the things you did to me so bad,
have turned around to be good,
It is only now that I have understood.

I was a prisoner in a golden cage,
I lived my life in the color beige.
But now rainbows abound,
new sights and sounds.

After the grey clouds disappear,
I have seen everything very clear.
Gone are the chains that bound me to fear,
and I do not need you near.

Loving who I really am,
I live my life by my own program.
I have become my number one fan,
and I do not need a man.

Daydreaming of You

It’s a beautiful day outside,
I breathe in and close my eyes.
My thoughts run away……..
and your on my mind.

So far away, yet so close to me,
I want to touch you and feel you near,
Your sweet voice I want to hear.
The sound of your words still echo in my ears,
I sigh and my heart subsides,
feeling calm and peaceful inside.

Daydreaming of you,
and all the things that you do.

Your that special someone in my life,
the one that blows my mind.
At the end of the day I need you to unwind.
You dry all of my tears,
and with your love calm all of my fears.

I see you when I close my eyes,
I see you when I fantasize.
I need you like I need to breath in the air,
With you I would live my life without a care.
But for now all I can do,
Is to dream of you.

So here I am once again sitting outside,
feeling the warmth of the sunlight,
the way you smile comes to my mind,
and suddenly the world stops and I am feeling alright.

Closing my eyes and Daydreaming of you………..

I never did think it would come to this

I never did think it would come to this,
you left screamin', shakin' your fist,
sayin' you would never come back again,
that we were through, this was the end,
now here I am down on my knees,
praying so hard, hopin' someone sees,
all this pain that's in my heart,
just a broken frame, picture's torn apart,

I can't seem to forget about you,
and all the things that we used to do,
but I...I swear I'm trying,
and if you see me out on the street,
tears in my eyes and sores on my feet,
I...I feel like dying,

So today I tried to forget,
all of these years, said, "I'm done with it",
gathered up your pictures and started a fire,
then turned out to be a liar,
'cause I couldn't bring myself to burn,
all the memories, and now I yearn,
for just one day, or just one night,
of you and I not havin' a fight,

My friends all say, "You gotta move on",
I need to forget, but I'm not that strong,
so I just think about that day,
when you turned and walked away,
left me here with tears on my face,
all those years, I could never erase,
and you didn't even say goodbye,
and I...I just wanna die,

Since you left I just walk around,
hoping that I'll see you in town,
that hope is what gets me through,
through these days without you,
so if you see me on my knees,
I'm prayin' for you, oh baby please,
can't you just forget and forgive,
'cause you're the only reason that I live,
and I...

I can't seem to forget about you,
and all the things that we used to do,
but I...I swear I'm trying,
and if you see me out on the street,
tears in my eyes and sores on my feet,
I...I feel like dying...

You changed my world with a blink of an eye

You changed my world with a blink of an eye
That is something that I can not deny
You put my soul from worst to best
That is why I treasure you my dearest Marites

You just don't know what you have done for me
You even pushed me to the best that I can be
You really are an angel sent from above
To take care of me and shower with love

When I'm with you I will not cry even a single a tear
And your touch have chased away all of my fear
You have given me a life that I could live worthwhile
It is even better everytime you smile

It so magical those things you've made
To bring back my faith that almost fade
Now my life is a dream come true
It all began when I was loved by you

Now I have found what I am looking for
It's you and your love and nothing more
Co'z you have given me this feeling of contentment
In my life something I've never felt

I wish I could talk 'til the end of day
But now I'm running out of things to say
So I'll end by the line you already know
"I LOVE YOU" more than what I could show

Too late for love, too late for joy

Too late for love, too late for joy,
Too late, too late!
You loitered on the road too long,
You trifled at the gate:
The enchanted dove upon her branch
Died without a mate;
The enchanted princess in her tower
Slept, died, behind the grate;
Her heart was starving all this while
You made it wait.

Ten years ago, five years ago,
One year ago,
Even then you had arrived in time,
Though somewhat slow;
Then you had known her living face
Which now you cannot know:
The frozen fountain would have leaped,
The buds gone on to blow,
The warm south wind would have awaked
To melt the snow.

Is she fair now as she lies?
Once she was fair;
Meet queen for any kingly king,
With gold-dust on her hair,
Now these are poppies in her locks,
White poppies she must wear;
Must wear a veil to shroud her face
And the want graven there:
Or is the hunger fed at length,
Cast off the care?

We never saw her with a smile
Or with a frown;
Her bed seemed never soft to her,
Though tossed of down;
She little heeded what she wore,
Kirtle, or wreath, or gown;
We think her white brows often ached
Beneath her crown,
Till silvery hairs showed in her locks
That used to be so brown.

We never heard her speak in haste;
Her tones were sweet,
And modulated just so much
As it was meet:
Her heart sat silent through the noise
And concourse of the street.
There was no hurry in her hands,
No hurry in her feet;
There was no bliss drew nigh to her,
That she might run to greet.

You should have wept her yesterday,
Wasting upon her bed:
But wherefore should you weep today
That she is dead?
Lo we who love weep not today,
But crown her royal head.
Let be these poppies that we strew,
Your roses are too red:
Let be these poppies, not for you
Cut down and spread.

A HUNTING MORNING

Put the saddle on the mare,
For the wet winds blow;
There's winter in the air,
And autumn all below.
For the red leaves are flying
And the red bracken dying,
And the red fox lying
Where the oziers grow.

Put the bridle on the mare,
For my blood runs chill;
And my heart, it is there,
On the heather-tufted hill,
With the gray skies o'er us,
And the long-drawn chorus
Of a running pack before us
From the find to the kill.

Then lead round the mare,
For it's time that we began,
And away with thought and care,
Save to live and be a man,
While the keen air is blowing,
And the huntsman holloing,
And the black mare going
As the black mare can.

A Blue Valentine

Monsignore,
Right Reverend Bishop Valentinus,
Sometime of Interamna, which is called Ferni,
Now of the delightful Court of Heaven,
I respectfully salute you,
I genuflect
And I kiss your episcopal ring.

It is not, Monsignore,
The fragrant memory of your holy life,
Nor that of your shining and joyous martyrdom,
Which causes me now to address you.
But since this is your august festival, Monsignore,
It seems appropriate to me to state
According to a venerable and agreeable custom,
That I love a beautiful lady.
Her eyes, Monsignore,
Are so blue that they put lovely little blue reflections
On everything that she looks at,
Such as a wall
Or the moon
Or my heart.
It is like the light coming through blue stained glass,
Yet not quite like it,
For the blueness is not transparent,
Only translucent.
Her soul's light shines through,
But her soul cannot be seen.
It is something elusive, whimsical, tender, wanton, infantile, wise
And noble.
She wears, Monsignore, a blue garment,
Made in the manner of the Japanese.
It is very blue-
I think that her eyes have made it more blue,
Sweetly staining it
As the pressure of her body has graciously given it form.
Loving her, Monsignore,
I love all her attributes;
But I believe
That even if I did not love her
I would love the blueness of her eyes,
And her blue garment, made in the manner of the Japanese.

Monsignore,
I have never before troubled you with a request.
The saints whose ears I chiefly worry with my pleas
are the most exquisite and maternal Brigid,
Gallant Saint Stephen, who puts fire in my blood,
And your brother bishop, my patron,
The generous and jovial Saint Nicholas of Bari.
But, of your courtesy, Monsignore,
Do me this favour:
When you this morning make your way
To the Ivory Throne that bursts into bloom with roses
because of her who sits upon it,
When you come to pay your devoir to Our Lady,
I beg you, say to her:
"Madame, a poor poet, one of your singing servants yet on earth,
Has asked me to say that at this moment he is especially grateful to you
For wearing a blue gown".



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I Can See The Pain

I Can See The Pain.....

I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall

I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new

Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever

Two years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my like ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see

We decided to go out and make it all all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't

I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall



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At night.......

At night.......
At night I lay and think of you hoping my wishes and dreams come true
At night I wonder can this be the end is this all that's left
At night I wish we could go to the way things were
At night I lay and cry about the things that happened and how it all ended
At night I lay and think of us, I mean you and I
At night I realize there's no more us
At night I dream of us together again
At night I wish for us to be together again
But in the morning I realize it was all
At Night !!!

To Watch You Leaving

is to know such pain, it's jagged edges tearing into my soul. As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

knowing all the while that never again will I fit myself, warm with sleep, against your solid back.

Nor hear your steady breathing. Or feel the beating of your heart.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

aware in every moment of every day that my dreams, my future; once tied with silken ribbons to yours, will never come to be.

And the mornings once so silent and hopeful, us gazing at the mountains and so gently awaiting forever - are now but small pieces of my past.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

your heart a tight fist of anger and your dry eyes betraying nothing of you. I cry for both of us, my love, because you will not.

To Watch You Leaving . . .

is to know that I've lost my place on this earth. My station. My heart's home. That I will wander, forever a nomad. Alone and afraid. And in my troubled dreams watch you leave, again and again.

For the balance of my days.

When we two are parted..

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.

When we two are parted

It breaks my heart in two

It breaks my heart in two,
just thinking i might lose you,
in front of you i will continue to hide,
that i really am hurting on the inside,

if you ever left town,
you would turn my life upside down,
you would leave me behind,
and i would lose my mind,

but something i hope you do not see,
that you really are everything to me,
you have no idea how much i care,
no idea i NEED you there,

it feels so hard to explain,
but without you it would forever cause me pain,
i never want to hear you say,
that your gonna stay away,

all this you will never know,
because i hope to never let it show,
i know i have fallen way to deep,
and you i want to keep,

but it is all up to you,
and i want to know what to do,
what would i do if you go?
i just wish i could know,

i know my heart would break,
and i would make the biggest mistake,
if you wanted to leave - i would let you go,
but i would love you forever without you to know,

your the one i will always need,
because without you my heart would continuously bleed,
i cannot live without you there,
i do not even know if you care,

would you stay to be with me?
or would you leave and say goodbye?
would you want a new beginning?
or would you stay with me forever?

would you stay to hold me tight?
would you stay with me every night?
would i have a forever lasting love?
are you my angel sent from above?

Lament of a dying butterfly

Lament of a dying butterfly -- even the best shall fall;
By breaking the only rule of the game of seduction,
It shattered the illusion that I did not care at all --
And slowly started to bring forth my own destruction.

Lament of a dying butterfly -- even the best shall fall;
Hearts tormented by past betrayals and destroyed trust --
A test to see if you cared enough to break down my walls,
Not just another plan for own satisfaction of lust.

Lament of a dying butterfly -- even the best shall fall;
Staring at you with teary cheeks and pain-filled eyes,
Stricken down from the sky, a lost soul's desperate call --
For redemption and a way out of a flawless disguise.

Lament of a dying butterfly -- even the best shall fall;
Two creatures searching for comfort, tried to fly high --
Fell together towards the earth, in a world so small,
Held each other close, not yet ready to say goodbye.

Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean

Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean,
Tears from the depth of some divine despair
Rise in the heart, and gather to the eyes,
In looking on the happy Autumn-fields,
And thinking of the days that are no more.

Fresh as the first beam glittering on a sail,
That brings our friends up from the underworld,
Sad as the last which reddens over one
That sinks with all we love below the verge;
So sad, so fresh, the days that are no more.

Ah, sad and strange as in dark summer dawns
The earliest pipe of half-awakened birds
To dying ears, when unto dying eyes
The casement slowly grows a glimmering square;
So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.

Dear as remembered kisses after death,
And sweet as those by hopeless fancy feigned
On lips that are for others; deep as love,
Deep as first love, and wild with all regret;
O Death in Life, the days that are no more!



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Farewell false love, the oracle of lies

Farewell false love, the oracle of lies,
A mortal foe and enemy to rest,
An envious boy, from whom all cares arise,
A bastard vile, a beast with rage possessed,
A way of error, a temple full of treason,
In all effects contrary unto reason.

A poisoned serpent covered all with flowers,
Mother of sighs, and murderer of repose,
A sea of sorrows whence are drawn such showers
As moisture lend to every grief that grows;
A school of guile, a net of deep deceit,
A gilded hook that holds a poisoned bait.

A fortress foiled, which reason did defend,
A siren song, a fever of the mind,
A maze wherein affection finds no end,
A raging cloud that runs before the wind,
A substance like the shadow of the sun,
A goal of grief for which the wisest run.

A quenchless fire, a nurse of trembling fear,
A path that leads to peril and mishap,
A true retreat of sorrow and despair,
An idle boy that sleeps in pleasure's lap,
A deep mistrust of that which certain seems,
A hope of that which reason doubtful deems.

Sith* then thy trains my younger years betrayed,
And for my faith ingratitude I find;
And sith repentance hath my wrongs bewrayed*,
Whose course was ever contrary to kind*:
False love, desire, and beauty frail, adieu.
Dead is the root whence all these fancies grew.

You know the typical teenage girl

You know the typical teenage girl,
With the shattered cries and defeated pride?
Remember the broken hearts; the many secrets,
And the agonizing pain they try to hide?

It's funny how they're looked down upon;
How much they get yelled at for not letting go.
And what's even more amusing is that I do that now,
When I used to be one of those.

Those little girls with the made-up smiles,
Looking forward to nothing but a fairy tale demise.
Walking around hopeful, with such naivety,
Just to end up with a loved one to despise.

Broken down and tainted; unwilling to love again,
Staggering in agony and drowning in lost hope.
Trying so hard to find the path they've lost,
Attempting with all energy left to cope.

And though I still sit among lost memories,
I've open myself and done what those girls can't.
To slowly reveal the heart inside of me,
And accept the love of another man.

I can see the tears forming around your eyes

I can see the tears forming around your eyes.
And I can see your fears building up inside.
I can see your confused and tired of life.
I can tell you wish everything felt right.

I can tell your sad and just want to be held.
I can tell you fake that smile and that your going through hell.
I can tell your afraid and fed up with the pain.
I can tell your feelings are hard to explain

All you need is for someone to come along.
And take your fears away so they'd be gone.
Someone to keep you warm when your shivering and your cold.
Someone of whom with your future will unfold.

Someone to take your hand and hold on tight.
Someone to hold you on through the night.
Someone to wipe those tears from your eyes.
Someone who will be faithful and never say goodbye.

Think real hard and you'll figure out that someone is me.
Ill make you my everything to my heart you'll have the key.
Ill give you happiness ill make your fears be gone.
Because it seems like in this world we all need someone.

I gaze at your pictures

I gaze at your pictures
As I go to sleep,
I can hear your voice
It sounds oh so sweet

I then close my eyes
And sleep the night through,
The dreams that I have
Are of me and you.

I awake in the morning
I know this is real,
This dream that Im in
It feels so surreal.

I whisper your name
And say I love you,
I tell you my dreams
Their of me and you.

You look in my eyes
And hold me so tight,
The fears that we have
Will soon have respite.

I cannot contain
My feelings for you,
My heart is set free
It belongs only to you.

Gazing into her eyes when we first met

Gazing into her eyes when we first met
I knew then she was heaven sent.
All I ever dreamed of, an angel from above.

She had no idea from the start
true love, I'd found in my heart.
One of a kind, Love that LASTS a lifetime
All I ever dreamed of, an angel from above.

Still, her smile, my breath it takes away
wanting, needing, to hold her, so much to say.
All my prayers answered when into my life she came
to me, she is everything.
All I ever dreamed of, an angel from above.

Like the moon, stars, morning sunrise
so much beauty, so much grace.
SHE'S even more through my eyes.
All I ever dreamed of, an angel from above.

Together, forever, I long to be
can you see, YOU'RE very precious and sweet.
The only one for me.
All I ever dreamed of, an angel from above.

Your gentle words, your tender touch, life meaning so much
wrapped tightly in each others arms I wish to be.
With you, I feel so free.
A vow to you I made, forever, you'll have my love.
All I ever dreamed of, an angel from above.

Dreams, drifting, deepened and watered

Dreams, drifting, deepened and watered,
Lonesome, sunken and so battered,
Cast away like dead mans corpse,
Shipwrecked on lifes long mysterious course,
Crying, raging from the soul within,
For a love lost, crushed and aching.

Clinging to a life that knows no care,
Im sinking beneath a million tears,
Captured, enslaved and compelled by a love
That only your heart can free me of
A love thats saddened and filled with fear,
To be enriched by your loves sweet tear.

My love is like the sun that warms me when I am cold

My love is like the sun that warms me when I am cold,

And like the cool water of the brook that refreshes me.

My love knows the secret pleasures of my soul,

And delights with me in fulfilling them.

Who is my love but the soul of my soul,

And the reason for every beat of my heart.

Who fills me with life in the joy of her presence,

And returns to me more than I have given.

Come to me, my love, I die without you.

Each day is eternity, waiting for your touch.

Remove the tears from my eyes and the ache in my heart,

Be closer than my breath, all my days, all my nights.

You have come to me from a distant land

You have come to me from a distant land,
Dreamer of dreams, to fill my hearts desire,
Sweet music flowing from your nimble hand
That plays within... to light my passion's fire.

A symphony of word and thought you bring.
Excitement builds upon crescendo's sound,
Brought forth in tones to make my light heart sing
For all the beauty that, with you, I've found.

A life is changed in just an instant's time,
All darkness fled before that brillaint sun
That shines from spoken words of softest rhyme
And speaks of treasures, only just begun.

This mystic meeting gives my heart a glow
That few have seen and only you will know.